I know your not here yet

i know you're not here yet but you'll hear this,

death is defnite so don't don't fear it,

When i'm gone don't do as i did, do as i say,

Your life is a test so do it your own way,

I wasn't perfect, never think that i was,

Every move that i made, i did it beacause,

well i don't know with hindsight you might tell me,

or someday someone out there might realise and bell me,

But i don't know yet so say the storys begun,

May not be as important as the daily rise of the sun,

But what i read on it's pages i think that its done,

cus truth is well, all this writing was it written for fun?

Logic don't apply, so really why they telling me?

I'm a human not an object so you won't be selling me,

Materialisms one disease disguised as another,

Not a day goes by without tears for my brother,

But i guess time will be cure to pain deep inside,

I don't know where i'm going but theres nowhere to hide,

tryina make sense of these things by writing a rhyme,

Maybe in my words you'll find a sign,

I'm not a role model its the way that i paved,

But I want you to learn from all the mistakes that i made,

I'm positive now, but don't think i've never bin the opposite,

Some days for me the best option wasn't bothering,

Now i stand to fight, cus theres things i wana do,

I know your not here yet but theres things i wana prove,

Lifes not long soon i'll be laying in my grave,

So really why the hell have i bin wasting my days?

One thing that i really wana say is look after youself,

& if i'm gone before your time then take care of yourself,

Cus nobody out there will trulyunderstand your pain,

& at the hardest times they'll take another lane,

Bieng on your own may be hardest to face,

But really theres another thing i must say,

Learn to respect yourself in order for others to do the same,

cus even if you don't others see it as a game,

Play with a heart cus, really it doesnt matter,

Build things up to watch a beautiful dream shatter.

I never really understood why things for me are as they are,

And to this day i dont get why they were taken so far,

& i don't truly beleive that i understand myself,

Or that a human biengs worth is determined by its wealth,

Or that in the end my life will deteriorate to nothing,

Or that even my last breath will determine anything,

But i guess lifes a beautiful struggle & im tryina help,

just remember in the end just to value yourself,

I know your not here, will you ever be?

will there be a day when you sit down to remember me,

will my life be a story that you'll forever read,

will i leave at a point where your proud of me?

I'll do my best & when your here, maybe you can tell,

But everythings within, the outsides a shell,